If You’ve Ever Been In Love

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Watch this video first and then read this post, it will make a bit more sense!

My most serious relationship didn’t last very long, and I have to say that I’m not quiet sure if it was “true love”, but I do think that it was some kind of love. We definitely had our ups and downs, but somehow we continued to forgive and forget. That is until the bad started to outweigh the good.

“I miss you. Not ‘I regret what happened’ or ‘I want to see you again’. Just… I miss you.” This was how it felt after we broke up. I knew that it was the right thing to do, but there was still this piece of me that felt weird and indescribable. It was that kind of feeling that you get at one in the morning and you don’t really know why. It was a part of me that missed loving someone so much, and being loved in return.

This short film by Nick L’Barrow hits you where you don’t expect it to. It tells the story of two people who “loved without reason”, and felt the loss when it was over. It’s real, honest, and painful because I believe that we’ve all experienced these feelings in our own ways. When we breakup, we end something beautiful, so it’s understandable that it hurts so damn much.

So when you’re at the computer, pouring your heart out in an email addressed to the one that you once loved (which we have all done), maybe it’s better not to send it. Maybe it’s better to move forward, to miss what has gone missing, and to love again. Maybe it’s better to start another, equally beautiful relationship with someone just as amazing. Maybe it’s better to love again and risk what you have, than to chase what’s already been lost. Just some food for thought.

Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks,

Marin X

Love Yourself In 15 Different Ways!

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On Valentine’s Day I made a video based off a post I read on 15 Ways To Love Yourself (click here to watch). Now, I didn’t finish all of the different activities, but the ones that I did do were kinda fun! Even though I didn’t really feel any significant change, I think the point of all of it was to just find creative ways to be alone and comfortable, which I always love doing!

           Going for a long drive through a neighborhood I’ve never known about. I even saw a deer!

Being an only child I’ve grown accustomed to spending hours by myself, so when I’m constantly surrounded by others, I find myself desperately searching for some alone time. Being alone allows you to clear your head, to review your stance on something, to reflect or compose yourself after a fight, and be able to just enjoy your own company.

You can never go wrong with a relaxing bath.
                     You can never go wrong with a relaxing bath.

All-in-all I highly encourage you to spend at least 20 minutes doing something alone, whether that’s going for a hike, taking a drive, or listening to relaxing music on your yoga mat in the middle of your living room (me everyday).

                       The pup and I having a relaxing night in!

It doesn’t matter what you do as long as you have fun doing it and you grow a little from the experience! If you want some inspiration, just search things to do by yourself or ways to love yourself. There are usually a lot of cool, sometimes pretty corny, ideas in those kinds of articles!

I also went on a hike in the freezing cold. I had a clear head and ten frozen toes by the end.
            I also went on a hike in the freezing cold. I had a clear head and ten frozen toes by the end.

Even binge watching your favorite movies/TV shows is SO MUCH FUN! Call in sick, actually become physically ill (me), or find an afternoon to watch 2 or 3 of your most-loved films.

My favorite movies consisted of ones I hadn't watched in a while: Anastasia, How To Steal A Million, and Hercules.
My favorite movies consisted of ones I hadn’t watched in a while: Anastasia, How To Steal A Million, and Hercules.

And no one can complain if you go and treat yo’ self! Except maybe your wallet…

A small Forever 21 splurge...
                                 A small Forever 21 splurge…

One thing that I’ve found really helps me is to go stargazing. Just the handful of visible stars in my neighborhood at night helps me feel grounded and all of the stress or nervousness of the day kinda melts away, leaving me feeling more connected with myself and the things around me.

I hope that you enjoyed this post and that you have taken something from it! I’m a firm believer of finding peace with your person. Not only does it feel amazing, it also comes in handy if you are in a bad place or if your having problems with others because you know your self-worth and that won’t change. At the end of the day all you have is yourself, so do things that make you happy and fulfilled.

Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks,

Marin XO

15 Ways To Love Yourself!

Hello My Beauties!

Now, we all go through times of insecurities. Maybe your eyebrows are crooked and now you can’t stop looking at them? Or you’ve just found another pimple? Maybe you were just turned down for an interview, a job, or a date?

All of these things hurt us in different ways. To some they mean nothing, while to others they hurt like hell and create a lot of self doubt.

I always like to dress up when I’m feeling down. The only way to feel sexy is to look sexy, right? But sometimes it’s bigger than that. Sometimes that feeling just doesn’t go away and we feel more and more self-concious or inadequate.

I get it. I’ve been there many times. But you can’t let those negative feelings hold you down. That’s the opposite of progress guys, that’s not what we want right now. We want to kick those feelings in the ass! Make them our bitches (so to speak). You don’t deserve to feel bad about yourself, none of us do! We’re AMAZING!

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Now that I’ve got you guys riled up with all those swear words, let’s move onto solving this problem.

I usually peruse the internet hunting for that one awesome article that will tell me how to feel better, and it usually works. This time I found an especially great one that I want to share with all of you!

Can you believe that all of that was leading up to a video?! Well, it was! Watch my video to see the 15 things that you can do to reconnect with yourself, and stay updated to see photos of me doing those exact things!

Also, if you EVER need anyone to talk to, I’m here to listen, advise, deliver revenge, etc, etc.

Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks,

Marin XO

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The End of a Pretty Awesome Year

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It’s been a whole flipping’ YEAR! I can’t begin to wrap my head around the fact that 2015 is tomorrow. Not to mention all of the insane things that have happened this year, one being the incredible progress on this blog!

It has been through so much, starting off as a place for just discussion topics and then finally merging with my old fashion blog to create QWERTY Girl, a place where my thoughts reside.

Anyways, I just want to say that I love you all so, so, so much and that I can’t imagine my life without you. Thank you to all of the bloggers that have helped me and partnered with me, and thank you to those who will be joining our Beautiful Community!

Thank you all and have a very merry New Year!

*Drumroll for the last sign-off of 2014*

Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks, and I’ll see you all next year,

Marin XO

P.S. If you want to read about the stats on this ever-growing blog( ’cause you like that sort of thing… I guess), the link is below!

Link to my annual report is here!

A Peek Into My Thoughts Right Now…

Hello My Beauties!
This week has been a little tough but in a weird way. So I thought that it might be good to open up about a couple of things that I have been thinking about these past couple of days and see what y’all think. Here it goes Lovelies…

Why Am I Doing This?

I feel like this is the age old question that everyone encounters, but for me this question revolves around my blog and my Youtube channel. Both of those things bring me SO much joy, and I love hearing back from you guys (it always makes my day!). But honestly, it can be really hard to balance life, school, and this blog. I always want to deliver great quality posts and material for you guys, so it sucks when I can’t exactly provide that. A huge reason for starting all of this was to reach out to all of you, as well as provide some advice in whatever areas of your life you are having troubles with! The down side to all of this is when a post that I work really hard on or a video I spend hours editing doesn’t get the attention I thought it would. It can be a real downer to look at this little baby you spent a chunk of your life on and not have it flourish. Then I start to think about the people that DO support me and that DO enjoy what I putout there, and I just get all emotional thinking about it! In the end you guys are the most amazing people and I appreciate you every second of the day! 🙂

Boys… Damn.

It just explains itself. Being a teenage girl acting like she has got everything figured out (WHAT A LIE!), boys are the biggest enigma I have ever encountered. I don’t understand how anyone ever ends up with each other when there is just this endless game of Cat-n-Mouse throughout the relationship. I don’t even know who is the cat and who is the mouse! And we can all relate to the endless, tortuous fantasies that flood your mind when you think about that person; your first date, first anniversary gift, etc. Sadly, and this is really sad, all those fantasies are just that! To make matters even worse, that perfect guy/girl in your mind, yeah no one is ever going to live up to those expectations! That significant other you are dreaming of is YOUR MIND! No one is ever going to be that person, and it isn’t fair for you, or anyone else, to have to compete with that. Still, that truly-true fact doesn’t stop me from constantly thinking about *insert name here* and how cute we would be together if it would ever work out. *sigh*

Life Is So Beautiful

Another big thing that has been on my mind is how amazing life is. The concept of life, the complexities of life, the endlessness of it. Life is the longest thing that each of us will ever experience, yet it is so short when you think about it. And another thing, it can go away so easily. That is a big part of what has been making me so emotional about the whole thing: it can be ended so quickly. That is also where the darker part of my brain steps in and makes everything really deep and really dark. Basically, I end up an emotional wreck. Yet, I like to think that there is an up side to all that, which is that lately I have been really valuing and experiencing EVERYTHING! Yes, I end up being really emotional over a plant or something, but I feel like that is part of really living (the feelings not the plant)! Being able to look at a anything and getting some sort of emotional reward. Plus, if you actually just take the time to look, and I mean REALLY LOOK, at this beautiful planet we call home, in this beautiful solar system, in this beautiful galaxy, in this beautiful universe, you will understand what I mean.

So that really went all over the place, didn’t it? Basically my stream of consciousness in a post. Anyways, I love you all and thank you for reading and please feel free to comment with ANYTHING!

Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks,

Marin XO