My Impending Fate

Hello there,

I hope that you’re all having a great Holiday Break and you’re all super pumped for the New Year! I know that I am. If you wanna see my Christmas Morning click here!

Anyways, back to the real reason why I’m writing this. By now you have probably noticed the change in format. That’s because this is yet another brain spill with Marin. Super exciting I know 🙂

I think that Mid-Winter break comes at a very interesting time of year. It is just before finals, or at least for my school it is, and it’s usually in the midst of all of the stress that is high school, which is a little unnerving. All of my teachers are wrapping up their classes and assigning the final projects (which are pretty big by the way) but none of them require any work to be done before we get back. No, they just hint  at the idea of getting stuff done because if you don’t, you’re in for a whole lot of hell when you get back.

Besides that load of stress, Mid-Winter break is nice. I get two weeks of pure time, and of course I end up abusing it in some way or another by binge-watching Dance Academy and sleeping until noon.

But lately I’ve found it kinda hard to breathe. There is a tightness in my chest that just doesn’t seem to fade and a small twinge of anxiousness that accompanies it. So I’ve decided to write it down hoping to ease the stress a little.

I don’t do well with stress, or the great looming cloud of stress that usually forms because of a big assignment or, you know it, finals. I know, I know, everyone takes them and the majority of the people hate them. And I know that they don’t decide my life, but that doesn’t mean that they don’t suck. A lot.

Another thing that has been gnawing at me is my future and what I want to do/study in college. The ACT is coming up and that means college applications are soon to follow, so all I can hope for is some guidance until then. I’ve always known what I wanted to do as a career, but since I’ve started my Youtube Channel (check it out!) and I absolutely love my blog, things have been changing for me. The drive to get a job and work isn’t there anymore… and that’s intimidating.

Writing about all of this helps a little, but it doesn’t help that feeling of an impending fate, which for once in my life I’m not exactly sure about.

But what about you guys! Do you have any stressors that are weighing you down? Maybe your own impending fate that’s worrying you? I’d love to hear about them, and who knows, maybe it would help to share.

Much Love,

Marin XO

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